Damned if you Do...

The Alan Parsons Project song goes:

I ain't got a heart of stone
You haven't left me a mind of my own
But its got such a hold on me
I don't think I could ever be free

Santana said:

I've got a black magic woman
Got me so blind I cant see
That she's a black magic woman
She's trying to make a devil out of me

Fallout Boy:

Am I more than you bargained for yet
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week

and, Puscifer:

(Pray) 'til I go blind
(Pray) Cause nobody ever survives
Prayin' to stay in your arms just
Until I can die a little longer...

When these songs of old and new cropped up on the radios, or CDs that others had at college (Because, I'm sure some of those labels are banned back in the midwest...) I used to chuckle.. Women like that don't exist. When dates seemed a distant concern, you certainly didn't worry about dangerous, predatory, irresistible women... Because you assumed they were an urban legend...

It's like, You don't believe some idiot would tie weather balloons to lawn furniture.. until you Google Larry Walters.

You don't believe that the creatures of the night that have been the subject of songs throughout the last century are real either... until you hear about Veronica White.

I can't kid myself of the stupidity...

The Danger of even considering....

Everything is so obviously...

... But Fuck that. For all the danger, it's a chance... To change someone back from the wrong side of the tracks. Hell if I know what I have that could possibly do it, but...

Damn it all, I'm not going to give up without trying! I just have to hope that no one else who can see the danger, but not the potential finds out too soon... I'm playing with fire, baiting bears and walking on the edge of something far more perilous than a tightrope, I just need to make sure I don't fall in while trying to bring someone else out...

I'm going to start tomorrow. It has to work, somehow... If not, then someone had better find out enough to learn from my mistakes.

-Daniel